The Person I Wish I Could Be...

There are several things I want people to remember me by and lately I have not behaved in a way that I want anyone to ever remember. I have done so many stupid things that I cannot change but I have started to realize that I need to go beyond knowing that it's wrong and JUST STOP DOING IT!

I want to be someone who people respect.
I want to be someone who inspires others.
I want to be someone who others look to for advice.
I want to be someone who can be strong.
I want to be someone who does not give in.
I want to be someone who is a leader, not a follower.
I want to be someone who can hold their head up and walk with dignity.
I want to be someone who learned from their mistakes.
I want to be someone who learns and grows daily.
I want to be someone other than what I have been lately.
I want to be someone different that what I have been before.
I want to be someone who can look back and say "I Learned."

I want to be this person, the person I described above. I am working on this now. I will better myself. I will not settle and I will make it through the hard times, no matter what it takes!

I will take the good with the bad.
I will smile even when I am sad.
I will love what I have.
I will remember all that I have had.
I will always forgive but never forget.
I will learn from my mistakes.
I will never regret my actions. They are what made me ME.
I will know that people can change.
I will never forget that things can go wrong.
I will remember LIFE GOES ON.

Things will be different from now on. I will be different from now on. I am stronger. I will be the best me from now on. This is the person I wish to be and I am working on it.

We Grew Up Like Brother and Sister

My best childhood friend was Jonathan Mitchell. Our families lived next door to each other until my second grade year. Our mothers were pregnant at the same time, we actually had the same due date, but he came early and I was late! We were born 15 days apart, he on Sept 5 and I on Sept 20. We were insperateable growing up. We ran back and forth between our homes and played CONSTANTLY! It even got to the point when we were babies (like under age of 1) our moms would bathe us together! LOL Even after I moved we were the best of friends! If we couldn't hang out we were on the phone. We lived like 3 miles from each other and would stay on the phone for 4 hours sometimes! He was the person I trusted the most! I have always wanted a twin and I felt like he was the fraternal twin I never had! As we got older we grew apart some. Not by my choice or his, but that of his girlfriend! She is very controlling! We barely speak now because of her! I cannot stand when girls try to put their bf's on a leash. The times they broke up we were able to hang out and be friends again. I miss him so much. If only she would chill out and see that I am not in love with him and do not want him. I just miss my friend and want him back.

Even though your not near you are dear....

Most of my family does not live in AL.
My sister Rachel, her husband Nathan and thier children Chrisley and Jude all live in Tupelo, Mississippi - like 6 hours away! I love them all especially my Little Miss Priss Chris!

My Aunt Shelia, her husband Charley and my cousin Travis all live in Limestone, Tennessee - like 9 hours away! I've grown a lot closer to Trav lately and would love for us to be able to spend more time together!

My Grandparents live in Rockholds, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! I used to go and spend all summer with them but as I got older it became more difficult for me to do this with my busy schedule, but I still love going to this "home."

My Aunt Kim and Uncle Ben and thier children Josh and Jacob live in Corbin, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! They are having thier own family problems right now and I wish I could be closer to help the boys deal with this time in thier lives. I love them all so much and hope everything gets better soon.

My Uncle Terry, his wife Kelli and her daughter Nikki live in Greenville, South Carolina - and I don't know how many hours this is from me! They are actually expecting a new addition to the family next year! They do not know the gender of the baby yet but I can't wait to find out and start getting ready for him/her to be here!

I miss you...

Is is possible to miss someone you still talk to and see? I think it is. Or maybe I miss the type of relationship we once had. I think that is what it really is for me. He was a really good friend, we were super close and would talk to each other about everything. I started to really care about him on a deeper level. Things did not work out the way I wanted. We still talk and hang out occasionally but it is not the same as it once was. Even though I am basically in love with him, I would love for it to be the way it was when we were just friends. Yes, my feelings for him would not change and I would still be in love with him but I really miss the stronge friendship that we once had. I hope that we can get back to this one day.

Someone You Have Drifted Away From

I had a few good friends in high school that I have drifted away from. The main ones I would like to reconnect to are Ryan Ashley and Jared Musgrove. I still keep in contact with Jared but it is not the same as it once was. I have not spoken to Ryan since graduation. We were close for a while in high school but certain people and our differing schedules tore us apart. It would be nice to see her again.

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Someone I Wish Would Forgive Me

There is no one I can think of that I have wronged that I wish would forgive me!

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The Person That You Hate The Most/ Caused You The Most Pain

There is no one that I hate, I might have said at one point or another but I did not really mean it.

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