We Grew Up Like Brother and Sister

My best childhood friend was Jonathan Mitchell. Our families lived next door to each other until my second grade year. Our mothers were pregnant at the same time, we actually had the same due date, but he came early and I was late! We were born 15 days apart, he on Sept 5 and I on Sept 20. We were insperateable growing up. We ran back and forth between our homes and played CONSTANTLY! It even got to the point when we were babies (like under age of 1) our moms would bathe us together! LOL Even after I moved we were the best of friends! If we couldn't hang out we were on the phone. We lived like 3 miles from each other and would stay on the phone for 4 hours sometimes! He was the person I trusted the most! I have always wanted a twin and I felt like he was the fraternal twin I never had! As we got older we grew apart some. Not by my choice or his, but that of his girlfriend! She is very controlling! We barely speak now because of her! I cannot stand when girls try to put their bf's on a leash. The times they broke up we were able to hang out and be friends again. I miss him so much. If only she would chill out and see that I am not in love with him and do not want him. I just miss my friend and want him back.

Even though your not near you are dear....

Most of my family does not live in AL.
My sister Rachel, her husband Nathan and thier children Chrisley and Jude all live in Tupelo, Mississippi - like 6 hours away! I love them all especially my Little Miss Priss Chris!

My Aunt Shelia, her husband Charley and my cousin Travis all live in Limestone, Tennessee - like 9 hours away! I've grown a lot closer to Trav lately and would love for us to be able to spend more time together!

My Grandparents live in Rockholds, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! I used to go and spend all summer with them but as I got older it became more difficult for me to do this with my busy schedule, but I still love going to this "home."

My Aunt Kim and Uncle Ben and thier children Josh and Jacob live in Corbin, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! They are having thier own family problems right now and I wish I could be closer to help the boys deal with this time in thier lives. I love them all so much and hope everything gets better soon.

My Uncle Terry, his wife Kelli and her daughter Nikki live in Greenville, South Carolina - and I don't know how many hours this is from me! They are actually expecting a new addition to the family next year! They do not know the gender of the baby yet but I can't wait to find out and start getting ready for him/her to be here!

I miss you...

Is is possible to miss someone you still talk to and see? I think it is. Or maybe I miss the type of relationship we once had. I think that is what it really is for me. He was a really good friend, we were super close and would talk to each other about everything. I started to really care about him on a deeper level. Things did not work out the way I wanted. We still talk and hang out occasionally but it is not the same as it once was. Even though I am basically in love with him, I would love for it to be the way it was when we were just friends. Yes, my feelings for him would not change and I would still be in love with him but I really miss the stronge friendship that we once had. I hope that we can get back to this one day.

Someone You Have Drifted Away From

I had a few good friends in high school that I have drifted away from. The main ones I would like to reconnect to are Ryan Ashley and Jared Musgrove. I still keep in contact with Jared but it is not the same as it once was. I have not spoken to Ryan since graduation. We were close for a while in high school but certain people and our differing schedules tore us apart. It would be nice to see her again.

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Someone I Wish Would Forgive Me

There is no one I can think of that I have wronged that I wish would forgive me!

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The Person That You Hate The Most/ Caused You The Most Pain

There is no one that I hate, I might have said at one point or another but I did not really mean it.

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A Deceased Person I Wish I Could Talk To...

There are a few people that made a huge impact on my life that are no longer with me and I would love to talk to.

My Grandfather, we called Papaw. The year I was born he had a massive stroke and medical advances were not like they are now. He was never the same from the stories I heard. What little memory I have of him does not depict him in the best of ways. I know he loved me and my family but with his medical problem he couldn't always show it. He passed away when I was in the second grade. The weeks after his death are a blur to me, not only because it was so long ago but because so much happended and it all seemed so fast at that young of an age. I wish I could talk to him. I just want to know what he was like before the stroke and what he would say to me.

My Grandmother, we called Mawmaw. This was by far the most amazing woman I have ever known in my life. She was very stronge and went through so much in her lifetime, I just don't know how she did it. She passed away my senior year in high school. I mostly regret the way I acted the last few years she was alive and around the time of her death. For personal reasons I did not visit her as much as I should have. I was a teenager who only cared about herself. I really wish she would have been able to at least see me graduate. I miss her so much and even though I do not think about her everyday I will never forget her and the impact she made on my life. I would give anything to talk to her and get any advice she could give me. I miss her so much.

Ty Hall. Ty was a boss of mine, that quickly became a good friend. Though I did not know him very long or very well his death really hit me hard. It was not long after my grandmother passed and it was the day before I graduated high school. There were so many emotions going on at once during this time of my life. I think one of the hardest things about his passing was the way it happened. He was young, not even 40, and had cancer. I didn't know until after he passed that he also had AIDS which is probably why the cancer took him so quickly. He was a great friend to me and I could talk to him about anything. I felt like he was an adopted uncle, friend, and older brother all at the same time. No matter what I went to him to talk about he never judged me or tried to tell me what to do, he just listened and gave me the best advice he could. I really miss joking around with him and would love to talk to him again.

Someone I Don't Talk To As Much As I'd Like ......

There are a few people in my life that I don't talk to as much as I would like to. One of them being my sister. She lives very far away from me and I love her to death but I guess we are both very busy with our seperate lives that there just aren't enough hours in the day to get it all done. I just hopes she knows how much I love and miss her all the time. Also, I would love to talk to my grandparents more. They are like 8 or 9 hours away and its difficult to see them all of the time and I wish I could talk to them more often. It is one of my worst fears that something will happen to one of them and it have been a long time since I got to tell them "I love you."

A Song

There is not one song in particular that has helped me through a hard time. There have been several songs along the way that have made me feel better at that moment. Sometimes I hear certain songs and think about that time in my life and how I felt and how it helped. Songs come and go with the new "fad" but friends and family are the real strength that power me though the hardest times.

But there are always those songs that I will never forget no matter how much time passes when I hear them I can always sing along like ... "A Whole New World" "Hakuna Matata" and "A Dream is a Wish."

Oh and there will always be the infamous "Mother Lover" that will make anyone laugh who hears Lacee and me rap it.

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Boys Can Be Replaced

What to say about my ex....? Well the most important thing to say is that I regret that relationship. There are so many people that I should have listened to but did not. I had to learn my lesson on my own; I just cannot believe that it took me sooo long to learn it. He had very many bad qualities that I ignored or beleived I could change --- NOT SMART! I did not love him, I loved the idea of who I thought I could make him into. I also was going through a lot at the time that we met and was basically looking for someone to love me and he was there. However, he put on a front. He acted like one person in the months that I got to know him and then once the relationship began he was a completely different person. Liar, fake, fraud feel free to insert any name you'd like here! BUTT that's the past and I have moved on and have no desire to ever see him again. I AM SOOOO MUCH BETTER THAN THAT! I've also realized its better to be alone and happy than in a relationship and miserable.

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My Dreams

My dreams over the years have changed and I am sure that they will continue to change. Right now my biggest dream is to be an inspiring teacher. I also dream to be a wife and mother one day (but not anytime in the near future). Something I have always dreamed of doing is traveling. There are so many places I want to go and things I want to experience. I have simple dreams but they are constantly evolving so there is no telling what my dreams will include in the future.

My Siblings

Rachel - I want to start off by saying I love you. Thank you for believing in me. I just want to take this time to tell you that I really appreciate the sister you have been to me. Even though we are like "night and day" different and 7 years apart we have always been able to find some common ground. Yes, we have had our fights and there were times we didn't get along but we are sisters and no one can take that from us. I know I drive you crazy at times but that's what little sisters do! I also want to tell you that I think you have turned into an amazing mom. Chrisley (my baby girl) and Jude (little man) are very lucky children to have you in their lives. I can't wait for you to get the joys of being an aunt, though not any time soon! :-) You are definitely someone I look up too. You are a stronge, hard-working, amazing woman. I can't wait to graduate so I can move back closer to you and the rest of the family!

David - There were times and are still some occasionally when I couldn't decide to hate you or not. There are times when we get along perfectly and other times I want to strangle you! You have changed ALOT since I moved away. I know there were things you were going through for a long time and I admit I did not understand and I was probably very mean during those times. I also hope you understand why I was like that. Now that you have grown up some it is much easier for us to relate. I know you still have those days but you really are a better "you" than you ever have been. When I think about some of our childhood stories it cracks me up; like how I used to talk for you all of the time and how I tried to make you think you were swapped at birth (sad thing is you believed me!) oh or the time Rachel and I tied you to the pole downstairs all day, and when you chased us around the house with butcher knives! AHHH! Oh the stuff that we have gone through together! But when it gets right down to it you are my brother and I love you!

To You Both - I know that age and distance seperate us right now but I do not want that to stop us from always being able to count on each other.

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My Parents

Mom:

So I know there have been times when we didn't always get along. But over the last few years we have grown a lot closer and I am thankful for your friendship. I have grown up a lot and can now respect the advice you give. I know I do things you don't always agree with but no matter what you are always there to support me. I know I can count on you for anything. You are my rock that I can always lean on. I think we are a lot more alike than I ever wanted to admit. I am honestly sorry for all the time I yelled and screamed at you for reasons that were not important. I am so glad that we have grown to have a great friendship. You are the reason I am the person I am today.

Dad:

I know I don't always agree with the things you say and vise versa. But I know you love me and I love you and you will always be there for me. You have supported me in everything I have ever done. Thank you for always being there for me!

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