There are several things I want people to remember me by and lately I have not behaved in a way that I want anyone to ever remember. I have done so many stupid things that I cannot change but I have started to realize that I need to go beyond knowing that it's wrong and JUST STOP DOING IT!
I want to be someone who people respect.
I want to be someone who inspires others.
I want to be someone who others look to for advice.
I want to be someone who can be strong.
I want to be someone who does not give in.
I want to be someone who is a leader, not a follower.
I want to be someone who can hold their head up and walk with dignity.
I want to be someone who learned from their mistakes.
I want to be someone who learns and grows daily.
I want to be someone other than what I have been lately.
I want to be someone different that what I have been before.
I want to be someone who can look back and say "I Learned."
I want to be this person, the person I described above. I am working on this now. I will better myself. I will not settle and I will make it through the hard times, no matter what it takes!
I will take the good with the bad.
I will smile even when I am sad.
I will love what I have.
I will remember all that I have had.
I will always forgive but never forget.
I will learn from my mistakes.
I will never regret my actions. They are what made me ME.
I will know that people can change.
I will never forget that things can go wrong.
I will remember LIFE GOES ON.
Things will be different from now on. I will be different from now on. I am stronger. I will be the best me from now on. This is the person I wish to be and I am working on it.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
We Grew Up Like Brother and Sister
My best childhood friend was Jonathan Mitchell. Our families lived next door to each other until my second grade year. Our mothers were pregnant at the same time, we actually had the same due date, but he came early and I was late! We were born 15 days apart, he on Sept 5 and I on Sept 20. We were insperateable growing up. We ran back and forth between our homes and played CONSTANTLY! It even got to the point when we were babies (like under age of 1) our moms would bathe us together! LOL Even after I moved we were the best of friends! If we couldn't hang out we were on the phone. We lived like 3 miles from each other and would stay on the phone for 4 hours sometimes! He was the person I trusted the most! I have always wanted a twin and I felt like he was the fraternal twin I never had! As we got older we grew apart some. Not by my choice or his, but that of his girlfriend! She is very controlling! We barely speak now because of her! I cannot stand when girls try to put their bf's on a leash. The times they broke up we were able to hang out and be friends again. I miss him so much. If only she would chill out and see that I am not in love with him and do not want him. I just miss my friend and want him back.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Even though your not near you are dear....
Most of my family does not live in AL.
My sister Rachel, her husband Nathan and thier children Chrisley and Jude all live in Tupelo, Mississippi - like 6 hours away! I love them all especially my Little Miss Priss Chris!
My Aunt Shelia, her husband Charley and my cousin Travis all live in Limestone, Tennessee - like 9 hours away! I've grown a lot closer to Trav lately and would love for us to be able to spend more time together!
My Grandparents live in Rockholds, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! I used to go and spend all summer with them but as I got older it became more difficult for me to do this with my busy schedule, but I still love going to this "home."
My Aunt Kim and Uncle Ben and thier children Josh and Jacob live in Corbin, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! They are having thier own family problems right now and I wish I could be closer to help the boys deal with this time in thier lives. I love them all so much and hope everything gets better soon.
My Uncle Terry, his wife Kelli and her daughter Nikki live in Greenville, South Carolina - and I don't know how many hours this is from me! They are actually expecting a new addition to the family next year! They do not know the gender of the baby yet but I can't wait to find out and start getting ready for him/her to be here!
My sister Rachel, her husband Nathan and thier children Chrisley and Jude all live in Tupelo, Mississippi - like 6 hours away! I love them all especially my Little Miss Priss Chris!
My Aunt Shelia, her husband Charley and my cousin Travis all live in Limestone, Tennessee - like 9 hours away! I've grown a lot closer to Trav lately and would love for us to be able to spend more time together!
My Grandparents live in Rockholds, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! I used to go and spend all summer with them but as I got older it became more difficult for me to do this with my busy schedule, but I still love going to this "home."
My Aunt Kim and Uncle Ben and thier children Josh and Jacob live in Corbin, Kentucky - like 9 hours away! They are having thier own family problems right now and I wish I could be closer to help the boys deal with this time in thier lives. I love them all so much and hope everything gets better soon.
My Uncle Terry, his wife Kelli and her daughter Nikki live in Greenville, South Carolina - and I don't know how many hours this is from me! They are actually expecting a new addition to the family next year! They do not know the gender of the baby yet but I can't wait to find out and start getting ready for him/her to be here!
I miss you...
Is is possible to miss someone you still talk to and see? I think it is. Or maybe I miss the type of relationship we once had. I think that is what it really is for me. He was a really good friend, we were super close and would talk to each other about everything. I started to really care about him on a deeper level. Things did not work out the way I wanted. We still talk and hang out occasionally but it is not the same as it once was. Even though I am basically in love with him, I would love for it to be the way it was when we were just friends. Yes, my feelings for him would not change and I would still be in love with him but I really miss the stronge friendship that we once had. I hope that we can get back to this one day.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Someone You Have Drifted Away From
I had a few good friends in high school that I have drifted away from. The main ones I would like to reconnect to are Ryan Ashley and Jared Musgrove. I still keep in contact with Jared but it is not the same as it once was. I have not spoken to Ryan since graduation. We were close for a while in high school but certain people and our differing schedules tore us apart. It would be nice to see her again.
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Someone I Wish Would Forgive Me
There is no one I can think of that I have wronged that I wish would forgive me!
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The Person That You Hate The Most/ Caused You The Most Pain
There is no one that I hate, I might have said at one point or another but I did not really mean it.
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Saturday, September 18, 2010
A Deceased Person I Wish I Could Talk To...
There are a few people that made a huge impact on my life that are no longer with me and I would love to talk to.
My Grandfather, we called Papaw. The year I was born he had a massive stroke and medical advances were not like they are now. He was never the same from the stories I heard. What little memory I have of him does not depict him in the best of ways. I know he loved me and my family but with his medical problem he couldn't always show it. He passed away when I was in the second grade. The weeks after his death are a blur to me, not only because it was so long ago but because so much happended and it all seemed so fast at that young of an age. I wish I could talk to him. I just want to know what he was like before the stroke and what he would say to me.
My Grandmother, we called Mawmaw. This was by far the most amazing woman I have ever known in my life. She was very stronge and went through so much in her lifetime, I just don't know how she did it. She passed away my senior year in high school. I mostly regret the way I acted the last few years she was alive and around the time of her death. For personal reasons I did not visit her as much as I should have. I was a teenager who only cared about herself. I really wish she would have been able to at least see me graduate. I miss her so much and even though I do not think about her everyday I will never forget her and the impact she made on my life. I would give anything to talk to her and get any advice she could give me. I miss her so much.
Ty Hall. Ty was a boss of mine, that quickly became a good friend. Though I did not know him very long or very well his death really hit me hard. It was not long after my grandmother passed and it was the day before I graduated high school. There were so many emotions going on at once during this time of my life. I think one of the hardest things about his passing was the way it happened. He was young, not even 40, and had cancer. I didn't know until after he passed that he also had AIDS which is probably why the cancer took him so quickly. He was a great friend to me and I could talk to him about anything. I felt like he was an adopted uncle, friend, and older brother all at the same time. No matter what I went to him to talk about he never judged me or tried to tell me what to do, he just listened and gave me the best advice he could. I really miss joking around with him and would love to talk to him again.
My Grandfather, we called Papaw. The year I was born he had a massive stroke and medical advances were not like they are now. He was never the same from the stories I heard. What little memory I have of him does not depict him in the best of ways. I know he loved me and my family but with his medical problem he couldn't always show it. He passed away when I was in the second grade. The weeks after his death are a blur to me, not only because it was so long ago but because so much happended and it all seemed so fast at that young of an age. I wish I could talk to him. I just want to know what he was like before the stroke and what he would say to me.
My Grandmother, we called Mawmaw. This was by far the most amazing woman I have ever known in my life. She was very stronge and went through so much in her lifetime, I just don't know how she did it. She passed away my senior year in high school. I mostly regret the way I acted the last few years she was alive and around the time of her death. For personal reasons I did not visit her as much as I should have. I was a teenager who only cared about herself. I really wish she would have been able to at least see me graduate. I miss her so much and even though I do not think about her everyday I will never forget her and the impact she made on my life. I would give anything to talk to her and get any advice she could give me. I miss her so much.
Ty Hall. Ty was a boss of mine, that quickly became a good friend. Though I did not know him very long or very well his death really hit me hard. It was not long after my grandmother passed and it was the day before I graduated high school. There were so many emotions going on at once during this time of my life. I think one of the hardest things about his passing was the way it happened. He was young, not even 40, and had cancer. I didn't know until after he passed that he also had AIDS which is probably why the cancer took him so quickly. He was a great friend to me and I could talk to him about anything. I felt like he was an adopted uncle, friend, and older brother all at the same time. No matter what I went to him to talk about he never judged me or tried to tell me what to do, he just listened and gave me the best advice he could. I really miss joking around with him and would love to talk to him again.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Someone I Don't Talk To As Much As I'd Like ......
There are a few people in my life that I don't talk to as much as I would like to. One of them being my sister. She lives very far away from me and I love her to death but I guess we are both very busy with our seperate lives that there just aren't enough hours in the day to get it all done. I just hopes she knows how much I love and miss her all the time. Also, I would love to talk to my grandparents more. They are like 8 or 9 hours away and its difficult to see them all of the time and I wish I could talk to them more often. It is one of my worst fears that something will happen to one of them and it have been a long time since I got to tell them "I love you."
A Song
There is not one song in particular that has helped me through a hard time. There have been several songs along the way that have made me feel better at that moment. Sometimes I hear certain songs and think about that time in my life and how I felt and how it helped. Songs come and go with the new "fad" but friends and family are the real strength that power me though the hardest times.
But there are always those songs that I will never forget no matter how much time passes when I hear them I can always sing along like ... "A Whole New World" "Hakuna Matata" and "A Dream is a Wish."
Oh and there will always be the infamous "Mother Lover" that will make anyone laugh who hears Lacee and me rap it.
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But there are always those songs that I will never forget no matter how much time passes when I hear them I can always sing along like ... "A Whole New World" "Hakuna Matata" and "A Dream is a Wish."
Oh and there will always be the infamous "Mother Lover" that will make anyone laugh who hears Lacee and me rap it.
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Boys Can Be Replaced
What to say about my ex....? Well the most important thing to say is that I regret that relationship. There are so many people that I should have listened to but did not. I had to learn my lesson on my own; I just cannot believe that it took me sooo long to learn it. He had very many bad qualities that I ignored or beleived I could change --- NOT SMART! I did not love him, I loved the idea of who I thought I could make him into. I also was going through a lot at the time that we met and was basically looking for someone to love me and he was there. However, he put on a front. He acted like one person in the months that I got to know him and then once the relationship began he was a completely different person. Liar, fake, fraud feel free to insert any name you'd like here! BUTT that's the past and I have moved on and have no desire to ever see him again. I AM SOOOO MUCH BETTER THAN THAT! I've also realized its better to be alone and happy than in a relationship and miserable.
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Sunday, September 12, 2010
My Dreams
My dreams over the years have changed and I am sure that they will continue to change. Right now my biggest dream is to be an inspiring teacher. I also dream to be a wife and mother one day (but not anytime in the near future). Something I have always dreamed of doing is traveling. There are so many places I want to go and things I want to experience. I have simple dreams but they are constantly evolving so there is no telling what my dreams will include in the future.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
My Siblings
Rachel - I want to start off by saying I love you. Thank you for believing in me. I just want to take this time to tell you that I really appreciate the sister you have been to me. Even though we are like "night and day" different and 7 years apart we have always been able to find some common ground. Yes, we have had our fights and there were times we didn't get along but we are sisters and no one can take that from us. I know I drive you crazy at times but that's what little sisters do! I also want to tell you that I think you have turned into an amazing mom. Chrisley (my baby girl) and Jude (little man) are very lucky children to have you in their lives. I can't wait for you to get the joys of being an aunt, though not any time soon! :-) You are definitely someone I look up too. You are a stronge, hard-working, amazing woman. I can't wait to graduate so I can move back closer to you and the rest of the family!
David - There were times and are still some occasionally when I couldn't decide to hate you or not. There are times when we get along perfectly and other times I want to strangle you! You have changed ALOT since I moved away. I know there were things you were going through for a long time and I admit I did not understand and I was probably very mean during those times. I also hope you understand why I was like that. Now that you have grown up some it is much easier for us to relate. I know you still have those days but you really are a better "you" than you ever have been. When I think about some of our childhood stories it cracks me up; like how I used to talk for you all of the time and how I tried to make you think you were swapped at birth (sad thing is you believed me!) oh or the time Rachel and I tied you to the pole downstairs all day, and when you chased us around the house with butcher knives! AHHH! Oh the stuff that we have gone through together! But when it gets right down to it you are my brother and I love you!
To You Both - I know that age and distance seperate us right now but I do not want that to stop us from always being able to count on each other.
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David - There were times and are still some occasionally when I couldn't decide to hate you or not. There are times when we get along perfectly and other times I want to strangle you! You have changed ALOT since I moved away. I know there were things you were going through for a long time and I admit I did not understand and I was probably very mean during those times. I also hope you understand why I was like that. Now that you have grown up some it is much easier for us to relate. I know you still have those days but you really are a better "you" than you ever have been. When I think about some of our childhood stories it cracks me up; like how I used to talk for you all of the time and how I tried to make you think you were swapped at birth (sad thing is you believed me!) oh or the time Rachel and I tied you to the pole downstairs all day, and when you chased us around the house with butcher knives! AHHH! Oh the stuff that we have gone through together! But when it gets right down to it you are my brother and I love you!
To You Both - I know that age and distance seperate us right now but I do not want that to stop us from always being able to count on each other.
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Wednesday, September 1, 2010
My Parents
Mom:
So I know there have been times when we didn't always get along. But over the last few years we have grown a lot closer and I am thankful for your friendship. I have grown up a lot and can now respect the advice you give. I know I do things you don't always agree with but no matter what you are always there to support me. I know I can count on you for anything. You are my rock that I can always lean on. I think we are a lot more alike than I ever wanted to admit. I am honestly sorry for all the time I yelled and screamed at you for reasons that were not important. I am so glad that we have grown to have a great friendship. You are the reason I am the person I am today.
Dad:
I know I don't always agree with the things you say and vise versa. But I know you love me and I love you and you will always be there for me. You have supported me in everything I have ever done. Thank you for always being there for me!
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So I know there have been times when we didn't always get along. But over the last few years we have grown a lot closer and I am thankful for your friendship. I have grown up a lot and can now respect the advice you give. I know I do things you don't always agree with but no matter what you are always there to support me. I know I can count on you for anything. You are my rock that I can always lean on. I think we are a lot more alike than I ever wanted to admit. I am honestly sorry for all the time I yelled and screamed at you for reasons that were not important. I am so glad that we have grown to have a great friendship. You are the reason I am the person I am today.
Dad:
I know I don't always agree with the things you say and vise versa. But I know you love me and I love you and you will always be there for me. You have supported me in everything I have ever done. Thank you for always being there for me!
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
My Ideal Boyfriend
This post was supposed to be about my boyfriend, since I do not have one (nor do I want one anytime soon) I will be writing about my ideal boyfriend. :-)
These qualities that I want in a man are not in any kind of order of importance, they are just in the order my mind thinks at this time.
For physical looks I want someone taller than I am. Preferably over 6 feet tall! I also like guys that have a nice body. This does not mean they have to work out all the time or be super fit. I just want someone at least toned. I like a guy with big arms! I like to know when he holds me that I am safe in his arms. Plus, its just a huge turn on for me. As to hair, I have no preference to color or length, just that it is clean and tidy and not longer than mine. Facial hair is not my favorite thing, I don't really care for it all that much but depending on the guy I might like it. Back hair and chest hair are an absolute no, its nasty and that really needs to go! I also do not discriminate about skin color, if I am interested, I will give it a shot no matter your ethnic background.
As to personality: He must be funny, all girls love a guy that can make them laugh. He must be honest, respectful, trustworthy, caring, compasionate, loyal and hardworking (no one likes a lazy man). I love sacrasim so he must be able to take it and I don't care if he can dish it either. I want someone that can laugh at himself. I want someone who is spontaneous and fun but also knows how to relax and focus or plan things out when needed. I need someone who is not afraid to introduce me to his friends and family and acts the same way toward me when they are around as when they aren't around.
Other things that are important or a must: He must be educated, no ifs ands or buts about it. He must understand how serious I will take my job as an educator. He must love children. He should be an AL fan, I seriously don't know if I could love an AU fan because fall would be hell otherwise. He cannot be a serious smoker or dipper (nasty). I want someone who can be with me and have fun but at the same time knows how to give me my space. He must respect my family and their values even if he doesn't always agree. He must believe in God. He doesn't have to be perfect. He must support me in whatever I want to try. Must be willing to compromise.
These qualities that I want in a man are not in any kind of order of importance, they are just in the order my mind thinks at this time.
For physical looks I want someone taller than I am. Preferably over 6 feet tall! I also like guys that have a nice body. This does not mean they have to work out all the time or be super fit. I just want someone at least toned. I like a guy with big arms! I like to know when he holds me that I am safe in his arms. Plus, its just a huge turn on for me. As to hair, I have no preference to color or length, just that it is clean and tidy and not longer than mine. Facial hair is not my favorite thing, I don't really care for it all that much but depending on the guy I might like it. Back hair and chest hair are an absolute no, its nasty and that really needs to go! I also do not discriminate about skin color, if I am interested, I will give it a shot no matter your ethnic background.
As to personality: He must be funny, all girls love a guy that can make them laugh. He must be honest, respectful, trustworthy, caring, compasionate, loyal and hardworking (no one likes a lazy man). I love sacrasim so he must be able to take it and I don't care if he can dish it either. I want someone that can laugh at himself. I want someone who is spontaneous and fun but also knows how to relax and focus or plan things out when needed. I need someone who is not afraid to introduce me to his friends and family and acts the same way toward me when they are around as when they aren't around.
Other things that are important or a must: He must be educated, no ifs ands or buts about it. He must understand how serious I will take my job as an educator. He must love children. He should be an AL fan, I seriously don't know if I could love an AU fan because fall would be hell otherwise. He cannot be a serious smoker or dipper (nasty). I want someone who can be with me and have fun but at the same time knows how to give me my space. He must respect my family and their values even if he doesn't always agree. He must believe in God. He doesn't have to be perfect. He must support me in whatever I want to try. Must be willing to compromise.
Monday, August 30, 2010
My BestFriends
Over the years I have had several people who I considered best friends at the time. These people will remain unnamed, but along the way I realized they were not the best of friends or the best of people. Over the last 3 years I have found some pretty amazing friends that I love and can count on always so heres to them:
Jared - Thanks for always being there for me. You have been someone I could go to no matter what. Even though we do not hang out as much anymore we can still randomly hang out and catch up and it feels like we were never apart. I have truely appreciated your friendship and I know we will continue to be able to stay in touch no matter where the future takes us.
Brittany M. - I know we have known each other for almost our entier lives but it took us a long time to be the friends we are today. I can still remember when there were points in our lives that we didn't even like each other! But we finally found some common ground. I don't know how it happened, I honestly think we both just grew up! But I do know that I am thankfull that it did happen. And yes, college life has taken us apart but we are the kind of friends that don't have to tell each other every detail or even see each other regularly to know we can count on one another. I have made a life long friend out of someone I barely got along with!
Lolly - It is so funny to think of how we met and the past we share. We were close as kids, grew apart for reasons out of our control and then fate (or should I say Facebook!) brought us back together. We have silly memories of us as kids and some really good ones of us in more recent years! I know we have drifted some since I moved away but I know I can always count on you! Just wait til I graduate and move back to Birmingham, we will be unseperatable again!
Leah - When I think of the day I met you it cracks me up "Do you have a pen I can borrow?" HAHA. Who would have known a friendship thats ready for a life time would have happened over a pen?! But I know you were put in my life for a reason! We have been through so much together, so many laughs and tears have been shed since we met! You will be one of those friends I will never let out of my life! I will cry when you graduate and have to leave me! I will be there for every important day in your future from your college graduation, to your wedding day, to the day you have kids, to the day your grandchildren are born! You are my friend for life and I love you girl!
Lacee - I have found my long lost sister in you! God knew what he was doing when he placed us in seperate families because no one could have handled us growing up together! You are my crazy partner in crime, I know that if I am ever sitting in a jail cell for doing something stupid I won't be able to call you because you will be sitting right beside me. And the sad thing is if it ever really happened we will probably dying laughing at whatever it was that got us put there! And probably trying to flirt our way out of the situation! We might not have been friends for very long but we are friends until we die. One day we will tell our children and grandchildren together about the crazy mess we got into back in the day like motorcyles, blue reflector, rolling up to my house at 6:15am from being out ALL night several times and so many more to come! We will always be there for each other and always be kick ass together! I love you sister!
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Jared - Thanks for always being there for me. You have been someone I could go to no matter what. Even though we do not hang out as much anymore we can still randomly hang out and catch up and it feels like we were never apart. I have truely appreciated your friendship and I know we will continue to be able to stay in touch no matter where the future takes us.
Brittany M. - I know we have known each other for almost our entier lives but it took us a long time to be the friends we are today. I can still remember when there were points in our lives that we didn't even like each other! But we finally found some common ground. I don't know how it happened, I honestly think we both just grew up! But I do know that I am thankfull that it did happen. And yes, college life has taken us apart but we are the kind of friends that don't have to tell each other every detail or even see each other regularly to know we can count on one another. I have made a life long friend out of someone I barely got along with!
Lolly - It is so funny to think of how we met and the past we share. We were close as kids, grew apart for reasons out of our control and then fate (or should I say Facebook!) brought us back together. We have silly memories of us as kids and some really good ones of us in more recent years! I know we have drifted some since I moved away but I know I can always count on you! Just wait til I graduate and move back to Birmingham, we will be unseperatable again!
Leah - When I think of the day I met you it cracks me up "Do you have a pen I can borrow?" HAHA. Who would have known a friendship thats ready for a life time would have happened over a pen?! But I know you were put in my life for a reason! We have been through so much together, so many laughs and tears have been shed since we met! You will be one of those friends I will never let out of my life! I will cry when you graduate and have to leave me! I will be there for every important day in your future from your college graduation, to your wedding day, to the day you have kids, to the day your grandchildren are born! You are my friend for life and I love you girl!
Lacee - I have found my long lost sister in you! God knew what he was doing when he placed us in seperate families because no one could have handled us growing up together! You are my crazy partner in crime, I know that if I am ever sitting in a jail cell for doing something stupid I won't be able to call you because you will be sitting right beside me. And the sad thing is if it ever really happened we will probably dying laughing at whatever it was that got us put there! And probably trying to flirt our way out of the situation! We might not have been friends for very long but we are friends until we die. One day we will tell our children and grandchildren together about the crazy mess we got into back in the day like motorcyles, blue reflector, rolling up to my house at 6:15am from being out ALL night several times and so many more to come! We will always be there for each other and always be kick ass together! I love you sister!
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Something I Am Going To Do.....
So basically the idea is to write something to or about each topic everyday for 30 days. I seriously doubt I will get to it everyday so I'm changing it to every entry for the next 30 entries!
Entry 1-Your bestfriends.
Entry 2-Your boyfriend.
Entry 3-Your parents.
Entry 4-Your sibling.
Entry 5-Your dreams.
Entry 6-Your ex boyfriend/love/ crush.
Entry 7-A new friend.
Entry 8-Your first love.
Entry 9-A song that got you through your hardest times.
Entry 10-Someone you dont talk to as much as you like.
Entry 11-A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Entry 12-The person you hate the most/ has caused you the most pain.
Entry 13-Someone you wish would forgive you.
Entry 14-Someone you've drifted away from.
Entry 15-The person you miss the most.
Entry 16-Someone thats not in your state/country.
Entry 17-Someone from your childhood.
Entry 18-The person that you wish you could be.
Entry 19-Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad.
Entry 20-The one that broke your heart the hardest.
Entry 21-Someone you judged by their first impression.
Entry 22-Someone you want to give a second chance to.
Entry 23-The last person you kissed.
Entry 24-The person that gave you your favorite memory.
Entry 25-The person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Entry 26-The last person you made a pinky promise to.
Entry 27-The friendliest person you knew for one day.
Entry 28-Someone that changed your life.
Entry 29- The person you want to tell everything to, but are too afraid.
Entry 30- Your refletcion in the mirror.
Some of these might be adjusted but I will try to stay as close to the original topic. Also most of the names will probably be used but occasionally I might need/want to use only the first initial of someone's name or just make up a name. I dont want to hurt anyone but I will not lie in this and will tell everything to the best of my memory! I hope to be a better person by the end of these 30 entries!
Entry 1-Your bestfriends.
Entry 2-Your boyfriend.
Entry 3-Your parents.
Entry 4-Your sibling.
Entry 5-Your dreams.
Entry 6-Your ex boyfriend/love/ crush.
Entry 7-A new friend.
Entry 8-Your first love.
Entry 9-A song that got you through your hardest times.
Entry 10-Someone you dont talk to as much as you like.
Entry 11-A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Entry 12-The person you hate the most/ has caused you the most pain.
Entry 13-Someone you wish would forgive you.
Entry 14-Someone you've drifted away from.
Entry 15-The person you miss the most.
Entry 16-Someone thats not in your state/country.
Entry 17-Someone from your childhood.
Entry 18-The person that you wish you could be.
Entry 19-Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad.
Entry 20-The one that broke your heart the hardest.
Entry 21-Someone you judged by their first impression.
Entry 22-Someone you want to give a second chance to.
Entry 23-The last person you kissed.
Entry 24-The person that gave you your favorite memory.
Entry 25-The person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Entry 26-The last person you made a pinky promise to.
Entry 27-The friendliest person you knew for one day.
Entry 28-Someone that changed your life.
Entry 29- The person you want to tell everything to, but are too afraid.
Entry 30- Your refletcion in the mirror.
Some of these might be adjusted but I will try to stay as close to the original topic. Also most of the names will probably be used but occasionally I might need/want to use only the first initial of someone's name or just make up a name. I dont want to hurt anyone but I will not lie in this and will tell everything to the best of my memory! I hope to be a better person by the end of these 30 entries!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
School Is Back In Full Swing
My life again has a normal schedule, somewhat at least. Classes have been in session a week now and it already has me stressed and crazy and losing sleep! I have entirely too many classes, I really should chill out and take it easy one semester but that can't happen if I want to graduate on time, which I do, therefore MY LIFE = INSANITY! Microcomputers in Education is the first education class that I've had that I feel I am learning something that will actually benefit me in the classroom! Shakespeare is not what I was thinking it would be and neither is the professor (this is great news because I was affraid of this course)! Modern Novel is exactly what I thought it would be, I absolutely love this class! Advanced Grammar is also what I imagined, which is my hell on Earth; it will be the death of me this semester! Theory and Practice of Composition doesn't seem quite as awful as I thought but there will be a lot of work and from the look of my schedule I DON'T HAVE TIME!
I would like to petition whomever neccessary to add more hours to the day! I never seem to get enough sleep or never seem to have enought time for my job (that is to make money, I hate my job at the grocery store and would gladly leave if I were rich so therefore I work the minimum number of hours to get by) or never seem to have enough time to get my work done or never seem to have time to have a life!! Something has to give and since I'm not willing to give up any of these things time MUST be added to the day and extend it so all of my activities fit and can be accomplished!
I know it is not possible to do this but its a nice idea. But in reality no matter how many hours there were in a day, we as humans, would work as hard as possible to overfill them so that no matter what the "I have no time" excuse would still exist!
I would like to petition whomever neccessary to add more hours to the day! I never seem to get enough sleep or never seem to have enought time for my job (that is to make money, I hate my job at the grocery store and would gladly leave if I were rich so therefore I work the minimum number of hours to get by) or never seem to have enough time to get my work done or never seem to have time to have a life!! Something has to give and since I'm not willing to give up any of these things time MUST be added to the day and extend it so all of my activities fit and can be accomplished!
I know it is not possible to do this but its a nice idea. But in reality no matter how many hours there were in a day, we as humans, would work as hard as possible to overfill them so that no matter what the "I have no time" excuse would still exist!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
A Little About Me
The last few years a lot has happened to me. I graduated high school in 2008 and moved to attend school. I was so excited to get out of my parents house and be on my own. Well I got into a relationship with someone a lot older than me, not the best idea I've ever had. I thought that he was great then I really got to know him. I do not want to bash this person so I will not go into details. He was not who I thought he was and he was not the person I tried to make him into. After 1 year and 8 months I finally began to realize that I was very unhappy and could not stay in that relationship anymore. So I ended it and have not looked back since.
I am more happy now that I have ever been. I do not have controlling parents or a controlling boyfriend. I have finally had time to work on myself and focus on me for once. Mostly I focus on school and just being a young college student. My life has gone through some crazy twists and turns but I would not change one thing about where I am right now. I have learned a lot and have grown up even more. I have also realized it is okay to let loose and have fun.
I will graduate with a bachelors degree in 2012 and can not wait! But I am also looking forward to my life in the next few years of my life and to see what is thrown my way! :-)
I am more happy now that I have ever been. I do not have controlling parents or a controlling boyfriend. I have finally had time to work on myself and focus on me for once. Mostly I focus on school and just being a young college student. My life has gone through some crazy twists and turns but I would not change one thing about where I am right now. I have learned a lot and have grown up even more. I have also realized it is okay to let loose and have fun.
I will graduate with a bachelors degree in 2012 and can not wait! But I am also looking forward to my life in the next few years of my life and to see what is thrown my way! :-)
Friday, June 18, 2010
General Info
These last few years have been pretty crazy for me. Things have happened in my life that have shaped me into who I am and the person I am becoming. I cannot say all of these events were good nor were all of them bad, it was a mixture of both situations. Though I have been through a lot lately I am much happier today than I have been in a very long time.
I am an English Language Arts major at Troy University, basically I will be a secondary English teacher. I cannot wait until I get into a classroom and start making a difference. This is something I have been preparing for my whole life and did not even realize it. All though school I was pulled out to assist teachers of a younger grade as a tutor or aide. I was also selected as a peer tutor on many occasions and then there were those times that I just helped out my classmates who were struggling. Education has always been an important aspect of my life and I am so excited to get the oppertunity to change someone's life. Even if I only impact one student for the better, then I feel my job will be accomplished.
This is my first post in what will hopefully be many more. Sometimes my life gets hectic and crazy and I might forget about it for periods of time but I hope that this is something I can keep up with.
I am an English Language Arts major at Troy University, basically I will be a secondary English teacher. I cannot wait until I get into a classroom and start making a difference. This is something I have been preparing for my whole life and did not even realize it. All though school I was pulled out to assist teachers of a younger grade as a tutor or aide. I was also selected as a peer tutor on many occasions and then there were those times that I just helped out my classmates who were struggling. Education has always been an important aspect of my life and I am so excited to get the oppertunity to change someone's life. Even if I only impact one student for the better, then I feel my job will be accomplished.
This is my first post in what will hopefully be many more. Sometimes my life gets hectic and crazy and I might forget about it for periods of time but I hope that this is something I can keep up with.
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